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Oct. 6th, 2002 12:41 ami don't know why i even bother going to cast parties anymore. i don't like funk, so i don't dance. i don't like beer, so i don't get drunk. i don't like pot, so i don't get high. none of the people i like being around want to have a conversation with me, so i don't talk to anyone. i stayed long enough to find out that eric couldn't find the lambic i gave him money for, and i left about the time people started getting out pot.
i guess i feel like work and fun are supposed to be opposites, so if i have to put effort into having fun, it'll be more like i'm pretending to have fun. and i'd rather be the girl who everyone knows isn't part of the group because she sits in the corner the whole time, than the girl who everyone knows isn't a part of the group because she's trying too hard to fit in and have fun and just ends up making a fool of herself. i'm always afraid that if i try to be social, i'll end up being tolerated because i'm not quite annoying enough for anyone actively make me go away.
it smelled like glasgow, walking home.
the show was ....interesting. the light board fried itself a few minutes before intermission, at which point it was discovered that the dimmers didn't really work any more. if they're a scale from 0-10, after it fried, 0 was off and 2 was 100%. glen was ready to run the thing through the table saw. he did a good job, though, dealt with it when it would randomly surge, figured out levels on the fly. and now the show is over and i will actually get to spend evenings in my room again.
i need to do some ad homework, and i should do the reading so i can figure out what the hell goes in a 3 page abstract. whee.
i guess i feel like work and fun are supposed to be opposites, so if i have to put effort into having fun, it'll be more like i'm pretending to have fun. and i'd rather be the girl who everyone knows isn't part of the group because she sits in the corner the whole time, than the girl who everyone knows isn't a part of the group because she's trying too hard to fit in and have fun and just ends up making a fool of herself. i'm always afraid that if i try to be social, i'll end up being tolerated because i'm not quite annoying enough for anyone actively make me go away.
it smelled like glasgow, walking home.
the show was ....interesting. the light board fried itself a few minutes before intermission, at which point it was discovered that the dimmers didn't really work any more. if they're a scale from 0-10, after it fried, 0 was off and 2 was 100%. glen was ready to run the thing through the table saw. he did a good job, though, dealt with it when it would randomly surge, figured out levels on the fly. and now the show is over and i will actually get to spend evenings in my room again.
i need to do some ad homework, and i should do the reading so i can figure out what the hell goes in a 3 page abstract. whee.