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well, isn't this fun. went on a crying jag last night, for no other reason i can think of than lack of sleep.
i haven't gotten any word about a ride to fencing (troy is usually my ride, but he has free tickets to some movie or another in dc, and andy has a lesson) and you can't take rapiers on the metro, so i'm not going unless everything suddenly decides to work out. i'll have to email yael and get her to see if anyone will be willing to give me a ride to the stitch and bitch. (it's being held at yael's house, but she has no car space.) and a ride home, too.
so.... i'm not doing the one thing i look forward to all week. i might not even go to assessment. it depends on when my ride is going and coming back, and whether or not i actually go to sleep as soon as i get home tonight. i was going to authorize at assessment, but i'm not sure how well that will work, considering that i'm not going to the practice immediately prior. and if i'm not authorizing, i'm not sure how much i will enjoy the rest of the stuff.

along with being sleep deprived, i'm dead tired - we got my futon yesterday, and i spent the evening taking apart the sofa i had been sleeping on and putting together the futon, instead of finishing my shirt.

being upset and moodswingy and all, i wanted to talk to andy. actually i wanted to collapse on him, but barring that, i wanted to let him know that's how i felt and maybe get some zen hugs. but no, in between putting together the futon, he's not online. i come back three minutes after he leaves me a message saying

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i've just been reminded that tomorrow is payday. this makes me a little happier, in a socially conditioned sort of way.

however, i was reminded by the employee who has actually been known, rather frequently, to start sentences with, "now, i love the lord so much...." ugh. spare me. i'm tempted to think of something suitably pagan to matter-of-factly sprinkle throughout my conversations.

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::sigh:: dororthy, the lord-lovin' woman, just said, "oh, look, it's *sunny*!"
this makes me upset cause it means (if it holds) there will definitely be rapier practice that i'm missing. if it were raining, practice would be cancelled on account of playing with lightning rods. but no, when i *can't* go to practice, it's going to be sunny.

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well. i knew there was a reason i had a boyfriend. despite spending all last night talking to jen lynch (who, if i remember correctly, has only recently started treating him like a real person instead of freshman-year-andy), he came through and is going to take me to practice and home afterwards. and loan me a long sleeved shirt. hopefully there will be extra armor i can wear, seeing as how i emptied out most of my backpack when it became clear that i wasn't going to make practice today.

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i've been awake for a while, i've eaten something, and i get to go to practice. i'm still way sleep deprived, but no longer feel in imminent danger of crying.
oh, and i'm officially data entry now, not mail room. much less annoying, and it pays better too.

i like my boy. when he's actually there and available, he makes me happy. :)